jacob (memory list).

fourteen, fifteen?
hallway, locker.
hair in face, quiet.
parent's room, moment.
walk home.
north kingsboro love.
kingsboro kidding.
over.
chris, (not) cousins.
betrayal, hate.
drive-by "cunt" and cruelty.
josh.
helena.
danny and a mother.
porch moment.
time.
mental letters.
grandfather's anniversary, harold's.
the caboose, sean, linda, and adam.
upstairs, band.
denny, jacob.
chris and girlfriend.
awkward.
mental letters.
six months.
relationship breakdown.
google.
antebellum, myspace.
ratorum, friends.
message (from)!
christmas break, nothing.
january sorrys and spark.
february visit.
end and beginning.
happy.
mental letters, real.
move in june.
house.
new addition (hootch)!
three years, now.

new york menagerie (ongoing memory list).

will and deva.
mona's for breakfast, lunch, and dinner.
freedom on second avenue.
two feet from the ceiling loft.
alone, enjoyment.
georgia peach, target.
croxley's.
black out.
sugar free ben and jerry's pints.
adem.
diva.
guya.
nadj.
model approach.
body issues.
alcohol.
bridge and tunnel, europeans, crackheads.
morning park beers.
alejandro merona, la strega.
paul.
eric.
lauren(s).
lucky strike.
vodka crawl.
bret.
sparks.
court.
danny.
diva sleepover.
paul, crackhead.
richie.
dead cat.
not enough makeup boss.
queen designer.
teaching.
nikki.
adam.
brooklyn.

you know (memory list).

lipstick and cigarettes.
mona's.
broken (down) car.
passerby.
secret sleepovers.
bus to new jersey.
brother.
pad thai.
over.
random calls.
assassination tango.
benches in tompkins square park.
painting.
macadamia nuts.
battle of algiers.
pizza.
drunk dial.
walk in the west village.
six years?

i have joined the mm (i will explain this acronym in due time) but i feel like i am unraveling. so, i have turned to writing syllabic poetry. at least i can have control of line structure when everything else feels like it is falling apart.

on a plus minus scale (this made me think of the nickelodeon show pinwheel) this is where my life is at right now:

+ "where the wild things are"
+ "examined life"
+ the mysterious benedict society
+ the low anthem
+ rule of the bone
+ not giving in to bacon urges

- excessive sxsw blogging
- my after lunch dude crew
- rule of the bone (see above)
- bacon urges

Bad Blogger, Go To Your Room.

I haven't been blogging much and I should be--my head swirls with ideas. Ideas that need to be planted. Ideas that need to bloom.

I'm working on a memoir assignment that I gave my Seniors. Currently I'm reflecting on age twelve and my first real boyfriend [Sean Rector doesn't count--but that is a story I'd like to visit sometime soon, considering he was the first boy I called. And get this--I disguised my fifth grade voice to sound like an Eric instead of an Erica when his mom picked up the phone, ha!]: O.J. Anderson.



I'm a really terrible dancer, did you know this? And, I'm feeling pretty good at the moment, did you know this?