overwhelmed.

i'm feeling it. you know, it. i almost didn't go to work. and when i was at work all i thought about was home. i did come home to a smiling face, a clean house, pizza, and two happy puppies. it made the feeling subside for a while.

i've been avoiding zoloft since being offered the prescription by a doctor i had seen last spring. i told him that i suffer from what i believe to be social anxiety, to which he agreed and wrote the script.

upon a recent visit for an annual physical, another doctor offered up zoloft to help with all those socially suffocating feelings, excessive sweating, and (believe it or not) poor circulation issues i've been dealing with (even before the blood clot). he said it could also help with the hyperventilation and panic attacks i have after i stop breathing.

yes. i stop breathing (when i'm awake). but, we are not sure why.

but, i'm not sure how i feel about zoloft. something about being medicated bothers me more than all the ailments listed above.